I'm thinking about applying to art school. This has been on my mind for a while now, and I would really like to go as I think it would greatly improve my art skill (naturally). However, I don't know if I can handle another art teacher or two telling that I'm no good at art. I know I shouldn't care about what some silly art teacher has to say, that I should be confident in my art, and that I should do art for me not everybody else, but alas it's not that simple. When I first started really getting into drawing and painting, I was 16 years old and not doing so good at life. A series of bad stuff happened to me and I was really depressed. But I started art classes at high school and had hopes for the future. Then exams came along. My teachers told me I had actually failed the exams, but they had passed me (barely) just to be nice (I was in special classes do to my real life problems). Then they so kindly told me that perhaps art was not my thing and that I should serioulsy consider another education. At that point in life, a saying like that was devestaiting to me. I gave up art all the way convinced I was no good and couldn't improve. I would doodle a little now and again, but I never thought I was any good or that my art was worth anything. It took me almost 15 years to realise they where wrong. To tell a 16 year old that you have no room for improvement or that you can't delvelope as an artist is just stupid. You're 16! You've hardly started living. There is so much yet to learn, and art can be one of those things. Last year I finally started drawing and painting in full again. I love it so much! Not only because it's great fun, but also because it helps me grow and it makes me realise things about myself. I feel calmer, more confident, more happy and I know now that I was right the first time, this is what I want to do with my life. It's what I need to do. So why in my knownledge of all this am I afraid to apply to art school again? Why should a rejection of my art mean anything to me, when I do art for me? Because I also want to make art to share. Art that others will enjoy. And I guess that though I am now a grown, more confidant woman, there is still that little insecure 16 year old inside me, who so desparetly want approval, even if she shouldn't need it.
Sorry for the rant. Hope it made any sense. And yes, I will apply. If not, I'll always wonder what if, just what if. What if I actually got in.
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Seriously! That art teacher should never have been allowed to become a teacher!
Of course you should apply and I agree, what if, just what if, you get in and get to learn a lot and meet new people and develop enormously. I think it's worth the risk!
Yeah. The risk is defently worth it. I'm just waiting for the application assigments to be annonced. And I do belive that teacher did get some complaints later on made to the Students welfare organisations, however she didn't get fired in the end. The principal thought the complaints where surely all nonsense coming from teenagers and all. *sigh* Needless to say it was a rather conservative, old fashion kind of school.
Do it, apply to art school. You're better than that teacher; and you don't want to be wondering in 10 or 20 years what might have been. No, what ifs, just do it.
Thank you Jan. I will! ^_^ There is nothing worse then wondering what if.
Of course you should apply!! You are a wonderful artist! I love being in art classes because they motivate me! Go for it!
Thank you for your high praise PLO. I find art classes motevating to. I will surely apply and kep everybody updated here on the progress.
Hmpf, of course you can't listen to teenagers, they might actually know what they are talking about. Stupid teachers..
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